Part of my life.......

Long lost blog

2011-01-12T23:48:00.001-08:00

wow......finally i notice you my little bloggie.......long time didnt touch you d....and i cant touch you much now......coz i need to concentrate in my studies......just to tell you i didnt forget you......XD

Result for 4 weeks sleep less than 20 hours per week.....

2010-05-10T06:18:00.000-07:00

Recently, i'm deciding to go Australia to study next year......to achieve this target, i'm not getting extra money from home.....i'm trying to work and save to reach this target!!!!but event+event+event+work+work+work+hanging around+hanging around+hanging around+exam+exam+exam+assignment+assignment+assignment makes me gonna die soon.......not kidding.....i'm feeling that i'm dying soon.......but apparently, i'm having fun to the maximum!!!!busy days although is quite tiring, but it makes me able to forget something i should forget long time ago + i feel like more alive compare to sitting in front the comp and do nothing with facebook.........the end result, i'm having high fever last 2 days.......wake up middle of the night with whole body sweating and shaking while a bit of wind blow towards me......but now feeling better d......and now......everything is coming back!!!!gathering+assignment+exam!!!!!but soon i will have my vacation!!!!!aza aza fighting!!!!!XD

Update my life

2010-04-04T01:24:00.000-07:00

Let's describe my love life as it.....

recently, when i'm not thinking it.....i will feel my life is better......but when i start refresh my old memories......my heart ache like hell......please.....someone save me out of this please......i know i shouldnt think about it anymore.....but i just cant......everyday routine.....see her blog's update and facebook page......i need to control......today will be the 1st day of me not viewing any info about her.......trying to empty out my heart......hope that i will able to forget everything?????hope that i wont be sad anymore?????hope that i can pass through all these........maybe she had moved on......not in this matter anymore......but still the memories still fresh in me......gonna throw all the stuff out of my heart d.......but currently not going to have any new it......XD

Regain Strength

2010-03-20T06:58:00.000-07:00

After for so long time, i seems like finding excuse for myself....i seems like unable believe something that didnt went wrong suddenly goes wrong....every single moment, i'm trying to put the blame on you and maybe it caused what's now happening......but now, i realize that i always not thinking on your side, and i always find reason to go back to what we are previously.....but seems like impossible.....but i believe......i'm waiting.....although i dunno how long is the date will be.....how hard it will be....how hurt are you within these day.....i will slowly wait.......wait till that day you say yes to me.....this is a post that will always help me regain my strength to wait you......XD

Previously update......

2010-03-12T09:38:00.000-08:00

recently, i join a scout team called Southernwaves Seascout and currently holding the position of Treasury......the reason i like this team is the self development from them towards me.....as we can see, everyone is different.....some can be passive, and some can be aggresive......i admit that i'm always the passive one, and i'm always think that i should step out for the 1st move.......what's the bad to know more ppl????from them, i can see that they're passionate about scout.....although i have no knowledge about that, but i seems like prefer the way they having fun together, learning together, working together as a team......on the other hand, i dislike one of the spirit of them......they was like doing something is seek for credit.......i dun mean it by purposely way la......but they seems like having that type of thinking unconsciously......we had been through our 1st event in the zoo negara which is campaign for saving Malayan Tiger!!!!please save them!!!!they're getting smaller and smaller in number and going to extinct soon!!!!from this team, i seems like able to boost up my confident, and learning different type of skills......i hope i will be a better person in future by getting more self developing.......XD

The feeling of me......

2010-03-12T09:30:00.000-08:00

Recently, my feeling towards relationship seems like I'm trying to get a toy from a child. The example is a child is having fun with the toy, and I wanted to get it. When i rob it away, the child will cry. The child now is enjoying her toy and I'm unable to do anything. What i can do is wait the child hand me the toy? Or she want it forever? Hmm. I guess that's my feeling now. XD

Back to my old life......YAY

2010-02-06T04:27:00.000-08:00

recently i'm go into some kind of funny relationship and i thought i can hold it till the last.....but seems like it does not work.......maybe i did too much bad things towards my last few ex......and now i get the karma back?????haha......anyway......it's a good way to learn......so, pals!!!i'm back!!!activities!!!

keep it on???let go???

2010-02-04T08:37:00.000-08:00

what should i do???i done what i can did already...should i just let go like this???every single word you telling me rite now is like stabbing my heart with a knife...every few minute check out your blog see did you even update something...hopefully to know what situation are you rite now...but i think i regret to see it d...at 1st i thought we still have some hope to recover...due to what your sister told me...i thought you just missed out your mind or you just cant decided what's happening...when i saw it...it's like slicing out my heart piece by piece...you know how hurt is it???you really dun need to sorry towards me...if you really dun feel anything anymore...please reject me directly...dun force yourself to hypnotize so that you will think that you're still loving me...i'm hurt not just only once what you written inside the blog...i'm hurt every time i watch your blog...everything inside about me is so meaningless...i cant feel anything i'm worth for you to exist...dun force yourself too much...it's not worth to just pitying me or just wanna let me feel better after that...i love you...and i really do...but what i get return is???i'm getting tired and tired...i dunno how long i still can stand for it...

I'm tired......

2010-02-02T06:49:00.001-08:00

I'm tired......anyone can suggest anyway to release all the tiredness????

Paying back my debts.......XD

2010-01-14T11:51:00.001-08:00

Yesterday morning i couldnt wake up on time.....that's why today i'm paying back......one of the reason is because i'm in the study mood now!!!!and i'm doing my assignment although it need to hand in by next friday.....and so.......3 more hours to go coll!!!!XD

Target to achieve currently!!!!

2010-01-11T22:34:00.000-08:00

Recently my gf is going to be form5, and she's having her SPM this year......she's getting very hardworking currently......and i cannot be so lazy anymore!!!!so now i need to start studying d!!!!everyday wake up at 5 to study is my target!!!!!wish me luck!!!!XD

The rest of the day of waiting......XD

2009-12-27T00:39:00.000-08:00

2nd day of waiting......
Today i went to settle all the stuff my dad wanna do.....

To do list:
1.Go Indonesia Embassy to ask detail about open a business in Indonesia....
2.Buy some cure tiredness pad......
3.Buy shoes.....
4.Buy cellphone.....
5. Pick up my dad from airport......
Done:
2, 4 & 5.....

in the night had a small chat with my dear through phone......found out missing her badly.......:(

3rd day of waiting.......It's Christmas!!!!
Morning i just follow my dad to go everywhere he wanted to go......till 3 something sent him to airport(he go bali) then come back......

It's christmas night!!!!how can didnt have any activity besides waiting my dear come back?????
from airport come back and straightly go pick my friend.......arrived pyramid around 6 and start getting our present to exchange......

1st opinion.......condom......ngek ngek ngek ngek......(normal present is too boring.....wanted to buy something "special").....
walked for 2 hours.......get a christmas sort of lamp decoration.....then went to full house.....

Our dinner spent there till 10.30 and went to lagoon's night park for free.....went into the ghost house to scare ghost but not to get scared by ghost......XD
they take some pic for the deco in sunway and i'm doing report with my dear......^^.....then went to kim gary to drink tea.......we played true or dare in there.....but seems like some telling the truth and some did not......XD
after that should be going back home......but we found out the massage machine is still working in the mall.....so we had our massage section for 1 hour before back.......
after went home......go into facebook to see my dear's pic for a while and slept......

4th day!!!!!!!one more day left!!!!!
today should wake up earlier and go for toastmaster meeting.....but i arrived there is late and there is no one anymore......hope that roon is not saying i ffk again......XD
then went to get the forgotten book in my sis house.....and come home.......today just reloaded RM30 for my maxis and spent all of them within 1 hour......XD
watch some movie and get some sleep.......it's time to study!!!!!!and i miss you a lot dear!!!!!another 27 hours i can hear your voice without costing so much anymore!!!!!XD

last day!!!!!
Tomorrow will be see my dear d!!!!!wakakakaka.......there will be a big big hug and kisses from me.....hopefully she wont run away from me.....XD
yesteday my modem was striked by lightning and now is spoilt.......tomorrow gonna change modem d......sad......TT

and tomorrow is the day!!!!!!dear!!!!welcoming back soon!!!!!!19 hours to go to see my dear!!!!!XD

The 1st day of 5 days......

2009-12-23T03:58:00.000-08:00

Today is my dear went to sg celebrate Christmas with her friend......and i been left out.......haha.......reason=i'm too late announced; so that, i have no chance to go(passport not yet done, my dad is coming, mid term is coming, bla bla bla bla)......so i will not be able to see my dear till next Monday.......

Today's activity
Woke up at 6.30 and sms my dear(her flight is at 11)......go to school and realize i had been pranked by lecturer which because i have no class till next week =.=.........then come back and find a receipt which does not exist......after that went to subang to: check my stuff arrived or not, send to phone to fix, pay car loan and bills(whole trip cost me from 11.30am till 4pm which is because of waiting, waiting and waiting!!!)......then come home and have a nap and keep on thinking my dear.......later would be my study time and miss you dear!!!!!!!

写给某人的post。。。

2009-12-18T04:03:00.000-08:00

今天是我们的一个月纪念日。。。每天都好想念你哦。。。

我们的相识
我们的认识是在facebook开始的。。。因为不小心add错人的你和随便add人的我，在不同的shoutout不断的comment而认识的。。。

开始？
在无数的shoutout和comment里。。。我发现我开始对你产生了兴趣。。。慢慢的。。。每天的sms，每天的打电话，每天的msn已经成为了我每天的维他命。。。一天没听到你的消息就会很不舒服。。。还记得我第一次打给你吗？？？那时是你要回brunei一趟。。。你害怕一个人坐飞机。。。所以你命令我打电话给你。。。好让你分心。。。那通电话到现在我还记得。。。怕生的我对你说了一路顺风，和欺负我的你拼命嘲笑我。。。到了brunei的你每天都会上网陪我。。。渐渐的，我开始对你越来越有兴趣了。。。而渐渐的。。。我开始找借口想要见你。。。我们的前几次约会都因为有问题而不能见面。。。到了18/11/2009的那天，我们的第一场电影。。。我还记得那是Phobia2害怕鬼和盖着眼睛在看鬼戏的你好可爱。。。而我，心想要牵你的手。。。但是一直没有勇气。。。到了一半。。。我又想。。。如果我还不行动。。。那我就要失去我的机会了。。。慢慢的。。。我的手靠近了你的手。。。碰到的那一刻你没有避开。。。而我牵你的那一刻。。。你也好像等了好久一般。。。牵起了我的手。。。

现在？
虽然很难很难才能见到你。。。但是幸运的是我们还可以每天sms和讲电话。。。每天都在重复着同样的对白却不会闷。。。对我来说。。。只要听到你的声音那就足够了。。。除了上课外，我脑海中都是你。。。

未来？
我承诺你将是我的最后一任了。。。我累了。。。不想再换了。。。以前的我可以对任何事都不认真。。。都不会觉得任何事是一个需要伤心的事。。。今天受伤了。。。明天就可以爬起来了。。。而你对我而言渐渐的越变越重要。。。任何你对我的伤害开始像一把刀插进我的心。。。不能再对你的事不理不睬了。。。

对你的感觉
现在我的心完完全全属于你了。。。任何人都不可能跑进来了。。。见到你的喜悦就像画得到了水那般开心。。。我爱你dear Kelly。。。^^

小小领悟。。。

2009-11-28T05:10:00.000-08:00

前几天，我发生了一场小车祸。。。结果他选择报警。。。报警那我遇到一个workshop的人。。。他说他可以帮我和不收我一分一毫。。。结果搞到了很多很多的问题。。。

因为这件事，我家人吵架了。。。而我领悟到的是，我实在是太天真了。。。人家说，来了kl会变得比较现实一点。。。所以我告诉自己不可以变成这样子。。。所以我一直都是抱着乐观的态度生活。。。认为事情是跟着法律跑的。。。路可以很多弯，可是不会有坏的路。。。然而，我遇到这次的问题后。。。开始明白为什么人会变得比较现实了。。。其实他们也不想的。。。只是环境所逼。。。

现在的我开始觉得应该长大了。。。不应该抱着小孩子的态度处理事情。。。对外，我们应该处处提防。。。现实是必然的。。。可是，我还是坚持一点，对于家人和朋友还是不应该太过现实。。。只是要选对朋友先。。。

现在，我想的是不要再堕落下去了。。。应该开始努力了。。。对任何事都要打星12份精神。。。了解更多的事，从中学习。。。不要再容易相信人了。。。任何事都要三思而后行。。。

Penang Trip.....

2009-11-21T02:05:00.000-08:00

The purpose of this trip- my cousin's wedding(main)
- vacation with my friend!!!
but in the end.....i missed my cousin's wedding in the end......
this is the link of my cousin's wedding that day......
http://www.vimeo.com/7652848

but 2nd reason bring a lot of fun to me too......below is those picture we take that day......^^

Things happened on friday..........many my first time is taken away........TT

2009-08-08T08:56:00.000-07:00

Yesterday is one of my maddess night......at 1st......i just plan to eat dinner with my friend.......and my house no ppl.......so decide to spend my time with my friend.........

(8am)Morning, wake up to send my sis to work(later on she went to Johor d), and class(another sis going to Melaka).......then go to class......although my class at at 2......but go to coll to gao dim my assignment thingy.......when i'm in coll.......the mood for assignment is not ready yet......so i decide to watch some drama........

(12pm)After drama time, i found out the place i at is unable to online......so i decide to go to lab there to online.......at there i saw my friend, and he help me in my assignment......after gao dim everything, we went for lunch in Rotiman........inside Rotiman, i know some secret of them......hehe.....cannot mention in here.......

(1.30pm)After lunch, we go to the class(it's a replacement).......but we go in to the wrong class.......quite lakse at the moment.......haha.......when we go in to the right class.......supposely be a lecture.......but in the end, due to not enough ppl.......our lecture decide to let us go.......so my coll day is wasted........

(7.30pm)Then i called my friend to have dinner together.........and i went to fetch my friend......and we have a big traffic jam in Sunway area.......and finally arrive Taman Desa.......and get the last friend and eat at Taman Desa.......

(8pm)We went into a shop which main in tong shui.......at there we have a lot of conversation.......until 10, we send 1st friend home and 1stly decide for a movie........later on one of my friend suddenly suggest find a place and drink beer.......and we went into Jusco at Cheras Maluri area.......after we get all the stuff we need.......then my friend's gf asked us to join them.......therefore, we went back Sunway area again.......

(12am)They are drinking in a new Club called Republic.......and there is dance floor.......we just called 1 beer, and they decide to go in to dance(1st time for unplanned clubbing).......and the main point is.......i'm wearing slipper!!!!!!OMG......i think i'm the only one whoever wear slipper into clubbing(1st time wear slipper to go clubbing.......then it's ok la........went into inside and realize still not in the mood yet.....not enough drinking.......

(12.30am)At the time, we have only 5 ppl.......2 girl and 3 guy.........that club is the 1st club i ever seen the most complicated 1......all those girl like......hmm......nvm......just dun mention here.......XD.........then we all decide to dance.......at 1st few of us go and dance........me, another guy and 1 girl.......but seems like the girl been attracted by another guy......we seems like duo yu in that situation........then we go back and rest.......

(12.45am)Then one of my friend acc me to get all those bag into my car in parking lot......when we arrived parking lot......then we saw two guy at there.......but in the end, we take out the purse and put the bag into the car...........then we went up.......due to unsafetiness, we went down to double check again........(1st time scare my car in trouble).......

(1am)After 2nd assurance.......we went up and dance.......finally can get everyone into dance.......but really not in a dance mood........but just wanna get my friend and his gf dance together........then i started a game........which everytime push a person into middle and dance........but seems like we had failed......her gf is only playing with her friend.......and only half an hour, it makes me sweat like raining.......and all of the guy decide to go out for a drink.......

(1.30am)At 1st i thought everyone wants to leave.......then i drive my car out of the carpark.......and we only get the msg that those girl still wanna to dance......then we park somewhere near Sunway Lagoon entrance, and our drink have their function finally........we take out our drink and start drinking infront the entrance.......(1st time drink beer outdoor in kl).......

(2am)After half an hour like that, those girl decide to go home, and my friend go to get them........he told them the Sunway Lagoon entrance, but they went to another way round.........they walked the opposite way to Euphoria that area.........and so, we need to go there to get them........

(3am)When we come back, i saw my friend is chatting with another guy around my car.......go near that time.......then i saw is my sabah friend also(long time no meet d).......then we have a quick chat due to they had to go home.........after send 3 of them home........the last friend say wanna to have something to eat........then we went to Tropicana for some mamak........

(3.30am)And then we go to a park and continue our conversation and drinks.......at there, we talks alot and let me know more about this friend........we share alot of view, and problem........about what problem.......also cannot mention here........due to some secret between us.......hehe.......

(4.30am)After finish all our drink, we decide to play some move of breakdance......since there is a basketball court......we go there and play some simple move.......and i learn quite a lot.......(1st time play breakdance in public)........and then we go home........

等了3年的结果。。。

2009-08-01T01:04:00.000-07:00

还记得认识你的时候是三年前一个生活营里，同属于一个组的我们。。。当时的你是那么的活泼，开朗，和好玩。。。那时，我心里觉得的你是那么的有趣。。。慢慢的，随着生活营的结束，我们也慢慢的没有联络了。。。到了半年以后。。。在某个晚上，你传来了一个转寄的sms以后，我们慢慢的开始在电话里谈天了。。。

还记得那一年里我开玩笑的问你能不能给我一个机会追求你吗？？？为了那个所谓的开玩笑，我不知鼓起了多大的勇气。。。虽然当时的你拒绝了我，但是我还是没有放弃的。。。过了不久就是我们需要去读书的时间了。。。当时的我决定回来西马这一带读（我们都是东马人），让我意外的是，你也来了。。。而且住的地方还和我家很靠近。。。

可能是你没什么东马的朋友过来这里读吧，慢慢的，跟你一起出去喝茶的时间也变多了。。。你还记得那次买礼物的事吗？？？为了骗你选一份礼物，我用了要你帮我选买给大学朋友的礼物的事情吗？？？当时候知道的你有没有感动呢？？？那次半夜里，我，你和另一位朋友一起到Time Square去看戏的事呢？？？或许你都不记得了。。。可是这些都是我珍贵的回忆。。。

一年就那么的过了，我还是那么笨笨的等，可能因为我是个比较内向的人，在没有得到暗示前都是不敢轻举妄动吧。。。在每一次谈话里，开玩笑的追求你都是那么的认真，可是都是被你拒绝了。。。到底是你不喜欢我呢？？？还是怪我太过没胆了？？？渐渐的，我慢慢选择了放弃，去接受另一段感情了。。。

我承认那时的错误的开始，我只是利用那段时间来忘记你，也试试下给我一个机会放手。。。没有联络你的那整年让我慢慢地放下了你。。。虽然那段感情也不是维持得很好，在我决定分手的那段时间里，我们又见面了。。。而你又再一次的让我吃不安，睡不着。。。那时我才知道你有了男朋友。。。或许是上天给我的报应吧。。。我输的不是条件，我输的却是勇气。。。那男的的确比我勇敢很多，至少他勇于表达，勇于追求。。。不像我那么的懦弱。。。你是因为他那份勇气和永不放弃的精神慢慢喜欢上他的吗？？？

由于看到了你在msn里的personal messege那么的悲伤，在我的逼供下，你告诉了我。。。当时的你正因为一个误会和你的男友在冷战。。。你问了我，要和他复合还是分手呢？？？而我给你的意见是解开误会，再看你接不接受了。。。当时的那件事也真的是一个误会。。。你们也复合了。。。是不是我太笨了吧？？？还是又一次的懦弱？？？我竟然如此的笨，让你再一次的溜过了我的手心。。。在那时我就决定了，我要等你。。。这份执著在于我不想再一次失去你。。。

可能是因为那次帮你复合的事，让我们彼此更好了。。。慢慢的，出去玩的日子又增加了。。。也慢慢的，我的心再一次完完全全被你占据了。。。我决定虽然不能和你在一起，至少可以在背后默默的支持你。。。在你需要发泄的时候，找不到任何的人可以帮你时，你会想起我。。。慢慢的，我也变成了这位笨蛋。。。每一次看到你和你的男友在一起的时候，我的心如被千万支箭射穿了。。。

由于那一段错误的开始，让我觉得我并没有资格去爱一个人吧。。。也让我不敢对你下手。。。在一次的，我证明了我真的是蠢的。。。我给我自己的理由是我可能不是你要的那个人。。。也许你和他会比较快乐吧。。。我也看得出，他真的对你很好很好。。。先解释一下。。。她男友大她6岁。。。所以她和她男友跟朋友出去的时候都是静静的。。。还记得你还问过我一个问题吗？？？你问我你是不是变得没以前那么快乐了？？？当时的我也看得出来，你真的没那么快乐了。。。我还是没有那个勇气告诉你我的感受。。。只好逗你笑，让你再开心一点，也教你别那么想不开，好好生活就好了。。。虽然你渐渐的编得开心了，而我渐渐的变成忧郁了。。。

搞笑这首歌真的很适合我，只是小猪至少爱过了。。。而我还是在那笨笨的等。。。在别人面前，我总是显得很开朗。。。可是每天到了一个人的时候总是想起你。。。整夜就会睡得不是很安稳。。。别人总是说换另外一个人喜欢吧。。。你这样灯是不值得的。。。我也曾对我自己这么说，可是喜欢了那么久。。。说放下真的会不舍得。。。现在的我就还是傻傻的等。。。傻傻的陪你度过一些你不高兴的日子。。。傻傻的作你的好朋友。。。傻傻的自己在这里受伤。。。

今天，我终于决定告诉你了。。。结果我失败了。。。无论如何。。。只要是你的决定。。。我都会尊重的。。。从今以后我不会再干涉你的恋情了。。。等下去也不会有结果的。。。不如放手会更好点。。。对你，对我，对他也好。。。无论如何。。。我只希望你找到你的幸福。。。

2009-06-29T06:26:00.000-07:00

Venue: Quattro

Location: Opposite KLCC

Like: The DJ is good and quite nice environment

Dislike: There is no dance floor.......and too much auntie uncle jor......

Enjoy?: YES!!!!know quite a number of new friends.......try some new places......

Drunk?: ya.....there is 4 person........the one who is birthday, smallest among us i think birthday person's collmate, some 1 i know while drink tea in SS2 murni.......XD

Schedule of the day: morning went to fetch friend in Wangsa Maju, go cut hair, and walk around the Curve while waiting my sis off work......then go BU fetch friend.......then go to Taman Desa fetch another friend......go to Pelita (beside KLCC) eat some dinner before go in......then go the front door wait others......we wait at outside and they in inside waiting us =.=.......go in and squeeze 10-15 person with only 3 small round table......then started to drink Henessy V.S.O.P......and get high.......then started to dance......and started to see a lot of ppl drunk.....around 2 got ppl went out and vomit.......then try to make them clear.......3.00 sending ppl go back to their home.... around 4.30 came back to kl because they wanna eat beef noodle......we haven't arrive they had left.......went to petrol station to add fuel......wait till 6.00 the shop only open and started to add fuel.......6.15 arrive BU centrepoint eat some nasi lemak.......and send the last person home......went home take a bath and play facebook+watch drama a while......then beh tahan and slept.......XD

Take outside Quattro while waiting..........

The precious pic i had get.......the girl on right the only 1 pic the whole night......XD

See her mouth open so big......XD

All that i dunno de ppl in our group's pic......

Failed 1...........

My son's zhao pai pose......XD

Haha.....taking pic with leng lui S.......

Lui sat shao......XD

See.....same pose again.....=.=

She quite scare while take with me.....coz dunno each other......XD

Haha.....funny look!!!

Shao Xing Lui and me......

Try to notice behind that guy.......every pic he didnt open eyes......XD

JN!!!!!the funniest guy!!!!haha......

Haha......he still didnt open eyes......XD.....but this pic really funny......XD

The time we spend in petrol station.........

Last stop in BU Banana Leaf mamak......XD

Jae's farewell

2009-06-26T06:03:00.000-07:00

Location: LUNA Bar + Seksyen 16's Nasi Lemak

Motive: Farewell part for our boss......

Like: the view from there + quite lots of leng lui^^

Dislike: the manager attitude.......the story is like this......that day we went there and book

for outdoor table......however is still raining.......until the rain is stop and they had

settle the table for us.....when we go out to the table and suddenly their "VIP"

came.......then our table had lost.....they know they wrong already.......but still using

not very good manner and tone to chase us out of our table......

Things i our boss, Chai Jae Leong is going to Australia to continue his 2nd year degree jor....

want to say: this is our farewell party with him.........So long our boss.......i will miss you......XD

The one and only drunked guy amongs us......

MK's zhao pao eyes.....

Mamak time!!!!

Group picture....

WooHoo!!!!so many girls surrounding Jae....

Jae's bodyguard....

i like this......it's a statute middle the water under the staircase.....

Bar and cashier....

LUNA bar menu.....

Susan's 20th Birthday

2009-06-26T05:49:00.000-07:00

haha.......happy birthday to our shao xing lui.......SUSAN!!!!!the whole trip of that day is eat + watch + sing.........haha.......quite fun........although most of the picture is inside the k box........XD

ah siew, deniz, lun, susan, me

see how SINCERE she wish dao......XD

HIGH dao stand on the sofa.......

haha......started to sot jor......

our shao xing lui......

ah lun dunwan take pic with me.......seems like being forced.....TT

YAMMMMMMMMMM SING!!!!!!

外婆的80大寿。。。

2009-06-21T06:09:00.000-07:00

上个星期六是我外婆的80大寿。。。我妈妈回来为她庆生。。。我所有的舅舅，姨姨们都回来了。。。地点设在槟城的大山脚那。。。他们租了一间度假别墅给我外婆住。。。星期五我们就回去了，可是到的时候蛮晚了。。。所以没有去哪里吃好吃的东西。。。只去了那一代蛮旺的pasar malam那去吃东西。。。我小姨在那里卖kuih bulan。。。说真的，她的kuih bulan很好吃。。。当然的，我也回到了我的状态。。。对不熟悉的人不太敢说话。。。当晚我们吃了我小姨的kuih bulan，asam laksa，popiah，和一些拉拉杂杂的东西。。。

到了星期六，我家人就开始了寻找古早味的习惯，开始在大山脚吃了起来。。。每一次回去，我们都知道减肥在这时候是不可能实行到的。。。所以我们就会尽情地吃。。。单单一个早上，在大伯公庙前就吃了三种东西。。。传了三代的猪什，我姐姐喜欢加辣椒吃的果条汤，和我妈妈小时候吃的咖喱面。。。最可惜的是第四样吃不到。。。那就是我吃过最好吃的炸油条。。。

过后我们去选当晚吃的菜，那里是一个很偏僻的地方，不是槟城人还真的不知道这个地方。。。我们到了一个很有名的海鲜家吃。。。那里有很多政治人物，明星，和美食节目的照片。。。看起来蛮出名的。。。过后就是榴莲大餐的时候了。。。我们到了二姨家那里去吃。。。可惜的是我没有拍到照片，地上摆放着30-40粒榴莲，不是开了的，而是还没有开的30-40粒。。。旁边还放着两大袋的山竹。。。看到了顿时有种站不稳的感觉。。。我大舅是个推销员，整场榴莲大会就是让他给推销完。。。不可思议的，30-40粒的榴莲变成了不到十粒。。。吃了几粒榴莲的我赶快跑到山竹群去吃山竹。。担心等下发热气。。。

到了晚上，全部人整装到了海鲜家那去和我外婆祝寿。。。可能是太久没有一起聚会了，我大舅带了12支红酒来。。。那餐他酒喝了差不多1支的红酒。。。要回时都有一点站不稳了。。。所以我就帮他开车回去了。。。到了家里，我大姨丈还去拿了两支陈年的V.S.O.P过来。。。过后我们就拍了一张属于刘家子子孙孙的照片。。。

我总共有5位阿姨和3位舅舅。。。回到那，他们都会有讲不完的话题。。。整间屋子都会盘旋着他们的聊天声。。。当晚的那间家，没有一刻是安静的。。。尤其是当我大舅开始喝醉酒的时候。。。他开始乱乱说话了。。。当他感觉要呕的时候还要逞强。。。临出门要到外面去呕的时候还要说他是去拿东西罢了。。。当晚的他呕到七彩。。。还有了一段我们家才知道的笑话。。。

过了不久到了我二舅开始喝醉了。。。一直说：“I'm ok。。。”。。。对象是他的儿子。。。非常非常的好笑。。。而且还告诉我们一个很恶心的故事。。。他说有一次他也是喝醉酒。。。在clubbing的地方。。。当时候他们会准备一个桶给他们呕。。。他呕了呕，假牙跌了下去，他就伸手进去那个呕过的桶里纳其他的假牙放回嘴巴里。。。全部人看到一个一个倒了下来就叫全部人散会了。。。担心等下有更多的受害者。。。

当晚我三个舅舅，我，还有二舅的儿子做厅长。。。我，我二舅，和他的儿子睡在隔壁。。。整晚，他一直重复着 I'm ok给他儿子听。。。到了有一次他儿子不耐烦了，对他说回 but i'm not ok他才决定停下来。。。再过不久，我大舅熟睡了。。。开始发出了奇怪的声音。。。我二舅也展开了他的梦话大战。。。整个客厅变成了交响曲。。。

PS：下面是那时候的照片

同辈的小姐们。。。

舅舅姨姨们

同辈和侄儿侄女们

我的外婆

小舅和他的小女儿

叔叔姨姨辈

全家福

同辈的男士们

去世了的一位叔叔。。。

2009-06-21T05:39:00.000-07:00

有一天早上，当我还在睡觉当中，我爸爸突然打电话给我。。。告诉我一个蛮伤心的事。。。有一位和我爸爸很要好的叔叔突然去世了。。。死因是应为血管诸塞，突然爆毙。。。当时候还没清醒。。。等到我终于清醒了。。。开始想回这位叔叔。。。

当晚我和我二姐和大姐夫去了他的葬礼。。。大姐夫回去的原因是因为一段时间，他和我这位叔叔一起合作过。。。当时候看到了婶婶库的表情。。。心里突然开始感伤。。。慢慢的，我回想起我和这位叔叔的记忆。。。据他告诉我的，小时候，他很喜欢我这个小孩。。。因此，他把我称呼为“tok kong”。。。意思是最好的。。。当时候的我不知道那是什么意思。。。因此回话时就叫他“tok kong uncle”。。。因此我一家人都叫他 tok kong uncle 的。。。对于葬礼，我不是很习惯这种场面。。。也不知道要说什么。。。还好我姐姐又陪我去。。。我们进去烧了香。。。看了看叔叔的遗容。。。脸上的表情很安详。。。虽然是蛮不舍得这位叔叔去世，可是看到他面带笑容的去世了。。。也替他高兴。。。

我对他比较记得的记忆是几年前，他一家人到了sabah那去找我爸爸。。。顺便在sabah玩一玩。。。对于不熟悉的人。。。我会变得很静。。。可是他依然的对我那么友善。。。还每时每刻叫我tok kong 和告诉我那个故事。。。过后我回来kl读书时，也有去探望他。。。或许他和我爸爸年轻时是死党，所以我家人拜托的事他都会帮忙。。。像有一次我姐姐坐月子时，要去买新鲜的鱼时，一去到他那，他就义不容辞的帮我们选最新鲜的鱼。。。

过了几天后，我又去了他们的家。。。这次是他出殡的日子。。。开始看到婶婶时，她没哭那么多了。。。心想可能是想开了。。。慢慢的车出发了。。。按华人葬礼来说，儿子要在第一排推那辆车，亲戚朋友就会在后面慢慢跟着。。。那时候，他家人开始哭了。。。推到了半路，我们就上了车，直接到焚烧厂那进行火化。。。

到了火化厂，他的亲戚和家人就为他念经超度。。。我们也把我们手上的花放在他的棺材上。。。当棺材被推进去的那一刻。。。婶婶崩溃了。。。我也忍不住眼角含泪。。。不枯的原因不是不伤心，而是我认为死者们都不希望在世的人为他们伤心。。。所以我忍着了眼泪。。。

就在前几天我和我妈妈去探望他家人时，我妈妈告诉我这些事。。。在我出世的时候，我妈妈和爸爸还有这位叔叔在澳洲做工。。。当时候，第一个抱我的人是我爸爸。。。接下来就是这位叔叔了。。。我妈妈还说他每天一回到家就把我捧在手中，不管如何都不放手。。。即使我妈妈阻止他抱我也没用。。。

慢慢的我领悟了一个道理。。。人在世时往往不会珍惜身边的人。。。到了死后才来后悔。。。我也觉得我后悔了。。。为什么没有常去探望他。。。现在已经没有机会了。。。在未来的日子里。。。我希望会和他的家人家人常联络。。。这样子以来就不会重复遗憾了。。。

PS：如果我找到他的照片我会再放上来。。。