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Yesterday is one of my maddess night......at 1st......i just plan to eat dinner with my friend.......and my house no ppl.......so decide to spend my time with my friend.........


(8am)Morning, wake up to send my sis to work(later on she went to Johor d), and class(another sis going to Melaka).......then go to class......although my class at at 2......but go to coll to gao dim my assignment thingy.......when i'm in coll.......the mood for assignment is not ready yet......so i decide to watch some drama........

(12pm)After drama time, i found out the place i at is unable to online......so i decide to go to lab there to online.......at there i saw my friend, and he help me in my assignment......after gao dim everything, we went for lunch in Rotiman........inside Rotiman, i know some secret of them......hehe.....cannot mention in here.......

(1.30pm)After lunch, we go to the class(it's a replacement).......but we go in to the wrong class.......quite lakse at the moment.......haha.......when we go in to the right class.......supposely be a lecture.......but in the end, due to not enough ppl.......our lecture decide to let us go.......so my coll day is wasted........

(7.30pm)Then i called my friend to have dinner together.........and i went to fetch my friend......and we have a big traffic jam in Sunway area.......and finally arrive Taman Desa.......and get the last friend and eat at Taman Desa.......

(8pm)We went into a shop which main in tong shui.......at there we have a lot of conversation.......until 10, we send 1st friend home and 1stly decide for a movie........later on one of my friend suddenly suggest find a place and drink beer.......and we went into Jusco at Cheras Maluri area.......after we get all the stuff we need.......then my friend's gf asked us to join them.......therefore, we went back Sunway area again.......

(12am)They are drinking in a new Club called Republic.......and there is dance floor.......we just called 1 beer, and they decide to go in to dance(1st time for unplanned clubbing).......and the main point is.......i'm wearing slipper!!!!!!OMG......i think i'm the only one whoever wear slipper into clubbing(1st time wear slipper to go clubbing.......then it's ok la........went into inside and realize still not in the mood yet.....not enough drinking.......

(12.30am)At the time, we have only 5 ppl.......2 girl and 3 guy.........that club is the 1st club i ever seen the most complicated 1......all those girl like......hmm......nvm......just dun mention here.......XD.........then we all decide to dance.......at 1st few of us go and dance........me, another guy and 1 girl.......but seems like the girl been attracted by another guy......we seems like duo yu in that situation........then we go back and rest.......

(12.45am)Then one of my friend acc me to get all those bag into my car in parking lot......when we arrived parking lot......then we saw two guy at there.......but in the end, we take out the purse and put the bag into the car...........then we went up.......due to unsafetiness, we went down to double check again........(1st time scare my car in trouble).......

(1am)After 2nd assurance.......we went up and dance.......finally can get everyone into dance.......but really not in a dance mood........but just wanna get my friend and his gf dance together........then i started a game........which everytime push a person into middle and dance........but seems like we had failed......her gf is only playing with her friend.......and only half an hour, it makes me sweat like raining.......and all of the guy decide to go out for a drink.......

(1.30am)At 1st i thought everyone wants to leave.......then i drive my car out of the carpark.......and we only get the msg that those girl still wanna to dance......then we park somewhere near Sunway Lagoon entrance, and our drink have their function finally........we take out our drink and start drinking infront the entrance.......(1st time drink beer outdoor in kl).......

(2am)After half an hour like that, those girl decide to go home, and my friend go to get them........he told them the Sunway Lagoon entrance, but they went to another way round.........they walked the opposite way to Euphoria that area.........and so, we need to go there to get them........

(3am)When we come back, i saw my friend is chatting with another guy around my car.......go near that time.......then i saw is my sabah friend also(long time no meet d).......then we have a quick chat due to they had to go home.........after send 3 of them home........the last friend say wanna to have something to eat........then we went to Tropicana for some mamak........

(3.30am)And then we go to a park and continue our conversation and drinks.......at there, we talks alot and let me know more about this friend........we share alot of view, and problem........about what problem.......also cannot mention here........due to some secret between us.......hehe.......

(4.30am)After finish all our drink, we decide to play some move of breakdance......since there is a basketball court......we go there and play some simple move.......and i learn quite a lot.......(1st time play breakdance in public)........and then we go home........

还记得认识你的时候是三年前一个生活营里,同属于一个组的我们。。。当时的你是那么的活泼,开朗,和好玩。。。那时,我心里觉得的你是那么的有趣。。。慢慢的,随着生活营的结束,我们也慢慢的没有联络了。。。到了半年以后。。。在某个晚上,你传来了一个转寄的sms以后,我们慢慢的开始在电话里谈天了。。。


还记得那一年里我开玩笑的问你能不能给我一个机会追求你吗???为了那个所谓的开玩笑,我不知鼓起了多大的勇气。。。虽然当时的你拒绝了我,但是我还是没有放弃的。。。过了不久就是我们需要去读书的时间了。。。当时的我决定回来西马这一带读(我们都是东马人),让我意外的是,你也来了。。。而且住的地方还和我家很靠近。。。



可能是你没什么东马的朋友过来这里读吧,慢慢的,跟你一起出去喝茶的时间也变多了。。。你还记得那次买礼物的事吗???为了骗你选一份礼物,我用了要你帮我选买给大学朋友的礼物的事情吗???当时候知道的你有没有感动呢???那次半夜里,我,你和另一位朋友一起到Time Square去看戏的事呢???或许你都不记得了。。。可是这些都是我珍贵的回忆。。。



一年就那么的过了,我还是那么笨笨的等,可能因为我是个比较内向的人,在没有得到暗示前都是不敢轻举妄动吧。。。在每一次谈话里,开玩笑的追求你都是那么的认真,可是都是被你拒绝了。。。到底是你不喜欢我呢???还是怪我太过没胆了???渐渐的,我慢慢选择了放弃,去接受另一段感情了。。。



我承认那时的错误的开始,我只是利用那段时间来忘记你,也试试下给我一个机会放手。。。没有联络你的那整年让我慢慢地放下了你。。。虽然那段感情也不是维持得很好,在我决定分手的那段时间里,我们又见面了。。。而你又再一次的让我吃不安,睡不着。。。那时我才知道你有了男朋友。。。或许是上天给我的报应吧。。。我输的不是条件,我输的却是勇气。。。那男的的确比我勇敢很多,至少他勇于表达,勇于追求。。。不像我那么的懦弱。。。你是因为他那份勇气和永不放弃的精神慢慢喜欢上他的吗???



由于看到了你在msn里的personal messege那么的悲伤,在我的逼供下,你告诉了我。。。当时的你正因为一个误会和你的男友在冷战。。。你问了我,要和他复合还是分手呢???而我给你的意见是解开误会,再看你接不接受了。。。当时的那件事也真的是一个误会。。。你们也复合了。。。是不是我太笨了吧???还是又一次的懦弱???我竟然如此的笨,让你再一次的溜过了我的手心。。。在那时我就决定了,我要等你。。。这份执著在于我不想再一次失去你。。。



可能是因为那次帮你复合的事,让我们彼此更好了。。。慢慢的,出去玩的日子又增加了。。。也慢慢的,我的心再一次完完全全被你占据了。。。我决定虽然不能和你在一起,至少可以在背后默默的支持你。。。在你需要发泄的时候,找不到任何的人可以帮你时,你会想起我。。。慢慢的,我也变成了这位笨蛋。。。每一次看到你和你的男友在一起的时候,我的心如被千万支箭射穿了。。。



由于那一段错误的开始,让我觉得我并没有资格去爱一个人吧。。。也让我不敢对你下手。。。在一次的,我证明了我真的是蠢的。。。我给我自己的理由是我可能不是你要的那个人。。。也许你和他会比较快乐吧。。。我也看得出,他真的对你很好很好。。。先解释一下。。。她男友大她6岁。。。所以她和她男友跟朋友出去的时候都是静静的。。。还记得你还问过我一个问题吗???你问我你是不是变得没以前那么快乐了???当时的我也看得出来,你真的没那么快乐了。。。我还是没有那个勇气告诉你我的感受。。。只好逗你笑,让你再开心一点,也教你别那么想不开,好好生活就好了。。。虽然你渐渐的编得开心了,而我渐渐的变成忧郁了。。。


搞笑这首歌真的很适合我,只是小猪至少爱过了。。。而我还是在那笨笨的等。。。在别人面前,我总是显得很开朗。。。可是每天到了一个人的时候总是想起你。。。整夜就会睡得不是很安稳。。。别人总是说换另外一个人喜欢吧。。。你这样灯是不值得的。。。我也曾对我自己这么说,可是喜欢了那么久。。。说放下真的会不舍得。。。现在的我就还是傻傻的等。。。傻傻的陪你度过一些你不高兴的日子。。。傻傻的作你的好朋友。。。傻傻的自己在这里受伤。。。


今天,我终于决定告诉你了。。。结果我失败了。。。无论如何。。。只要是你的决定。。。我都会尊重的。。。从今以后我不会再干涉你的恋情了。。。等下去也不会有结果的。。。不如放手会更好点。。。对你,对我,对他也好。。。无论如何。。。我只希望你找到你的幸福。。。