Part of my life.......

After for so long time, i seems like finding excuse for myself....i seems like unable believe something that didnt went wrong suddenly goes wrong....every single moment, i'm trying to put the blame on you and maybe it caused what's now happening......but now, i realize that i always not thinking on your side, and i always find reason to go back to what we are previously.....but seems like impossible.....but i believe......i'm waiting.....although i dunno how long is the date will be.....how hard it will be....how hurt are you within these day.....i will slowly wait.......wait till that day you say yes to me.....this is a post that will always help me regain my strength to wait you......XD

recently, i join a scout team called Southernwaves Seascout and currently holding the position of Treasury......the reason i like this team is the self development from them towards me.....as we can see, everyone is different.....some can be passive, and some can be aggresive......i admit that i'm always the passive one, and i'm always think that i should step out for the 1st move.......what's the bad to know more ppl????from them, i can see that they're passionate about scout.....although i have no knowledge about that, but i seems like prefer the way they having fun together, learning together, working together as a team......on the other hand, i dislike one of the spirit of them......they was like doing something is seek for credit.......i dun mean it by purposely way la......but they seems like having that type of thinking unconsciously......we had been through our 1st event in the zoo negara which is campaign for saving Malayan Tiger!!!!please save them!!!!they're getting smaller and smaller in number and going to extinct soon!!!!from this team, i seems like able to boost up my confident, and learning different type of skills......i hope i will be a better person in future by getting more self developing.......XD

Recently, my feeling towards relationship seems like I'm trying to get a toy from a child. The example is a child is having fun with the toy, and I wanted to get it. When i rob it away, the child will cry. The child now is enjoying her toy and I'm unable to do anything. What i can do is wait the child hand me the toy? Or she want it forever? Hmm. I guess that's my feeling now. XD