Recently, i'm deciding to go Australia to study next year......to achieve this target, i'm not getting extra money from home.....i'm trying to work and save to reach this target!!!!but event+event+event+work+work+work+hanging around+hanging around+hanging around+exam+exam+exam+assignment+assignment+assignment makes me gonna die soon.......not kidding.....i'm feeling that i'm dying soon.......but apparently, i'm having fun to the maximum!!!!busy days although is quite tiring, but it makes me able to forget something i should forget long time ago + i feel like more alive compare to sitting in front the comp and do nothing with facebook.........the end result, i'm having high fever last 2 days.......wake up middle of the night with whole body sweating and shaking while a bit of wind blow towards me......but now feeling better d......and now......everything is coming back!!!!gathering+assignment+exam!!!!!but soon i will have my vacation!!!!!aza aza fighting!!!!!XD
Let's describe my love life as it.....
After for so long time, i seems like finding excuse for myself....i seems like unable believe something that didnt went wrong suddenly goes wrong....every single moment, i'm trying to put the blame on you and maybe it caused what's now happening......but now, i realize that i always not thinking on your side, and i always find reason to go back to what we are previously.....but seems like impossible.....but i believe......i'm waiting.....although i dunno how long is the date will be.....how hard it will be....how hurt are you within these day.....i will slowly wait.......wait till that day you say yes to me.....this is a post that will always help me regain my strength to wait you......XD
recently, i join a scout team called Southernwaves Seascout and currently holding the position of Treasury......the reason i like this team is the self development from them towards me.....as we can see, everyone is different.....some can be passive, and some can be aggresive......i admit that i'm always the passive one, and i'm always think that i should step out for the 1st move.......what's the bad to know more ppl????from them, i can see that they're passionate about scout.....although i have no knowledge about that, but i seems like prefer the way they having fun together, learning together, working together as a team......on the other hand, i dislike one of the spirit of them......they was like doing something is seek for credit.......i dun mean it by purposely way la......but they seems like having that type of thinking unconsciously......we had been through our 1st event in the zoo negara which is campaign for saving Malayan Tiger!!!!please save them!!!!they're getting smaller and smaller in number and going to extinct soon!!!!from this team, i seems like able to boost up my confident, and learning different type of skills......i hope i will be a better person in future by getting more self developing.......XD
Recently, my feeling towards relationship seems like I'm trying to get a toy from a child. The example is a child is having fun with the toy, and I wanted to get it. When i rob it away, the child will cry. The child now is enjoying her toy and I'm unable to do anything. What i can do is wait the child hand me the toy? Or she want it forever? Hmm. I guess that's my feeling now. XD
recently i'm go into some kind of funny relationship and i thought i can hold it till the last.....but seems like it does not work.......maybe i did too much bad things towards my last few ex......and now i get the karma back?????haha......anyway......it's a good way to learn......so, pals!!!i'm back!!!activities!!!
what should i do???i done what i can did already...should i just let go like this???every single word you telling me rite now is like stabbing my heart with a knife...every few minute check out your blog see did you even update something...hopefully to know what situation are you rite now...but i think i regret to see it d...at 1st i thought we still have some hope to recover...due to what your sister told me...i thought you just missed out your mind or you just cant decided what's happening...when i saw it...it's like slicing out my heart piece by piece...you know how hurt is it???you really dun need to sorry towards me...if you really dun feel anything anymore...please reject me directly...dun force yourself to hypnotize so that you will think that you're still loving me...i'm hurt not just only once what you written inside the blog...i'm hurt every time i watch your blog...everything inside about me is so meaningless...i cant feel anything i'm worth for you to exist...dun force yourself too much...it's not worth to just pitying me or just wanna let me feel better after that...i love you...and i really do...but what i get return is???i'm getting tired and tired...i dunno how long i still can stand for it...
I'm tired......anyone can suggest anyway to release all the tiredness????
Yesterday morning i couldnt wake up on time.....that's why today i'm paying back......one of the reason is because i'm in the study mood now!!!!and i'm doing my assignment although it need to hand in by next friday.....and so.......3 more hours to go coll!!!!XD
Recently my gf is going to be form5, and she's having her SPM this year......she's getting very hardworking currently......and i cannot be so lazy anymore!!!!so now i need to start studying d!!!!everyday wake up at 5 to study is my target!!!!!wish me luck!!!!XD